THE FEAR (my first love)

one day, there's someone who said that he was loved me
But, i denied him just then. Cause, i never had something made me awastrucked.
I always keeped away ,lorded it over , and sometime i never rebuked him.

In due course, i was concsious that he very and too loved me.
But, when i was concious and taken up to loved him...........................
He was lost and may be hadn't loved me anymore.
that's cause i leaving him too long time.
Else, may be it's punishment to me cuz had minimized someone who earnest love me :'(

NOW, I REALLY FEAR !!
:'( :'( :'(